In Session : the pilot
Over the years, I have been able to really understand what I want for myself. When it comes to my career, I’ve always been set on entertainment and writing. Those mediums stuck out to me because growing up they were the only tangible things I had. My mother was constantly working away while I’d stay at home.
Television and books influenced every aspect of my life. They really were my only friends for a long time. Since then I’ve always dreamt to be more like the shows, films and books I engaged with. I aspired to reach out to an audience who also needed a friend when being completely alone.
When I started college, I decided to reach out to my community and create my own Web series. I managed to bring together an amazing team. They were kind and motivated. But as time went on, some things fell short. It was hard. It was really hard. I felt as if my vision was never capable of reaching perfection and because of my pride, the show suffered and that happy team fell apart. I tried re-filming, re-casting & reassessing my vision but because of my lack of compromise and team transparency, the show continued to fall apart. Since then I decided to completely let go of the project and focus more on screenwriting and letting go of my ego.
It’s been four years since I watched the web series pilot. Watching it now, I realize how immature I was. I honestly can’t believe I felt like it wasn’t good enough because for my first project it TOTALLY WAS.
I understand how my team may have seen me as the villain and how some may view me as an unfit coordinator and I accept that.
At that time in my life I was so consumed by the thought of being perfect and only delivering perfect content. Now I understand the value of compromise, acceptance and of having a more open perspective.
To my past teammates,
I’m sorry for my lack of growth in 2017. I know that today, I have for sure changed and have grown way past that stage of immaturity. I want to thank you for all the support you gave during that production phase. You guys are beautiful, in and out.
Now that has been said, today I’m officially unveiling the pilot of “In Session” which has been 4 years overdue.
This project really means a lot to me. Posting this on social media makes me feel anxious and scared because I’m not really sure what everyone thinks of me. But I know that as I advance further into my career and life it’s important to vulnerable and transparent. So I’m trying my best to change and be more open. I wish that I went on creating more content of this series with the same team but life happens. I am a person who is growing and learning to do better and trying my best to accept things for how they are. There were many nights I found myself crying over this project and stressing over the details. I still do. I wanted this to be perfect so badly. But because of my anxiety and high expectations, I drained the excitement, love, and energy from what the series so desperately needed. I know now that patience and acceptance is what really drives any project and keeps things going. I’m glad I’ve been able to come to this realization. From now on, I’m going to stop holding back and just post the content I create. This is to the year 2020.
